jealousy is a trait i never really embraced or understood.
yes, there's times when i see someone perfect and i want to be like them, but is that jealousy? i don't think so.
and there's also times when i don't get to spend as much time with "him" as another girl does. but is that jealousy? no.
i have moments when these times and this form of "jealousy" frustrates me. it makes me think i'm not good enough for anyone; even myself. it makes me angry. it makes me upset. it makes me tear up.
tonight was one of those nights again. i wanted to cry my feelings out to someone.. but the only problem is, i don't think i have that "someone" here. that "someone" is somewhere in france right now having a great summer.
i get i would never be good enough.
i get i would never be able to be as skinny or as beautiful as those models.
i get i would never be able to keep everyone around me happy.
i get i would never be her.
i get i would never be perfect.
just please don't rub it in.